Author: j

_17:01

mmm, i’ve got a nice nutty flavor, some bitterness…

_16:12

i already went through these and for years on my own i do not want to be bothered with anyone from here forward,

_08:48

at which point do i lose my patience? i wonder, it's been years now... (not towards any of you in particular, just in general)

_08:45

a waste of time and money for me, in my opinion ~ suit yourself !

_17:49

am out front here at the shelter thinking to myself in this moment while i wait to go inside, if it was a certain someone who walked through here, stopping for a moment, talking to a stranger that used to stay here, putting your hand out at me from a distance and shaking your head, as if you were going through some emotions… it couldn’t be, you can’t expect me to be certain nor expect me to walk up to you and say hi (like a fool) (i have been messed with too often)

_09:10

taking advantage of this situation is wrong and i will not accept being told i cannot do anything about it. believe me, i will!

_08:50

for a period of time, i was paranoid and extra careful about my every move.

_03:24

do you know how good it feels to breathe? i opened both curtains. the rush of oxygen into the room, my body saying thank you… (update: @ 3:31, staff arrives, closed the curtains again)

_15:18

i never built a life on setting people up.

_15:16

these people make money off of my suffering, and this is how they behave , ?

_10:07

what is the meaning of life when you reach this place i am now, i cannot answer that for you.

_10:03

wondering if my words can be MiScOnTrUEd, some could say i am the one projecting today…

_09:02

they were “fronting” with peace here 📍, weren’t they?

_04:05

this morning a staff closed the curtain the moment i walked back inside, i stood there, took a picture of myself holding it open for a moment ~

_08:12

yep, i smoked again and yep, y’all gone get over it ~ ! (no issues) ☕️ ~ ~ ~

_07:21

i am not a bad guy and i am not going to put up with anyone treating me as such. i don’t need your company to survive or feel good (anymore) ~ ! (enjoying my own company, been this way for years now)

_01:55

second time within a few nights i have awoken to find my eye covers (old shirt) off my face and around my neck, facing right (when i usually face left toward the wall) : |

_22:38

the reason for handing someone a form in front of me at this hour in the dark is what?

_21:35

welcome to a much darker world…

_21:24

plus having to hear several arguments and someone being escorted out

_20:32

mMmMm, tea, coffee, chocolate & licorice before bed ~ (equals stomach ache)

_15:56

i must be too relaxed today, i am supposed to have reached my limits somewhere, right? hmm…

_15:45

was thinking to myself how some others smoke up here often, is it an offense coming from me?

_15:34

smoked (had one puff) on the capp patio for the first (and only) time! anyway,

_15:03

guess i should have saved the new bottle from yesterday because now i am one less, (actually it isn’t a problem anymore because i have a ceramic jar) but isn’t it polite to ask before taking? he even rinsed his face and drank out of it…

_14:21

income for you, housing where?

_14:10

from my walk to and from martine’s, i am making a point about having to consume more 🌸 (several, actually) & have been thinking of a different time, a time when i had money & worked hard…

_12:21

no, thanks, and no on the orange too, .

_12:05

wow. it absolutely is nonsense in the world, ~ just not from me . !