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last week it was okay, they even fit inside of one bin.

delaying progress further,

i pushed the door slowly several times and stood there for a moment while they locked the door in front of me before i walked away…

i called, and insisted, for a phone appointment. to some responses,

i made the point about having to come in two years ago just to sit in front of a phone…

i said over the phone, forward the message in capital letters, -he insists on it!-

update: cash assistance denied

00:59

once again, i open the curtain just a few inches, quietly insisting out loud that it needs to remain so, at least that much… !

19:32

i know i am such a huge disappointment i haven't always been in the right state of mind and today i might be but i have nothing to do with it so

19:10

a lot of what i write in my journal has to do with what goes on around me in the moment, most of it is not towards any one in particular... and only a few have to do with any of you...

18:59

you may think you have something of substance to say back in this message but you don't… i have sent individual messages to everyone at different points and i even called you sharing some things not too long ago so yes, it actually should make some sense. and dismissing my journal as nonsense like i am some loony that is out of it, it is me who doesn't know what to say back. i have shared plenty by now.

10:15

each day i make it very clear i am not about to start taking direction from anyone. it is you, not me… creating issues.

09:42

what are charade s and what is this morning at martine’s for ___________

09:22

i have tuned out of many things and into something better, don’t tell me i don’t have enough status or whatever… because i just might laugh in your face, but probably not…

08:47

oh, is it because you are used to being the bad guys, so it is not a problem for you, having this image?

06:35

i have moved the blanket up and down before with my foot for satisfaction, as an exercise to break free from your hold.

05:54

this is the second time i unhook two hooks holding the curtain on this side to make a point. why does nobody else complain, too used to it perhaps?

01:49

i’ve already lost a toolkit last year in their possession and they leave everything loose + open in mixed bins, many items not even marked with a name or bed number.

00:49

go on and be desperate, i am not there with you, no matter how hard you try.

21:20

what will it take to get my attention? you don’t deserve it.

19:07

did she really just pretend to say “hey, i need to talk to you”?

11:56

if what i hear around me is true i will choose to ignore it!

10:57

what i write here may at best be just another way of coping, to some it doesn’t really matter,

10:44

i have learned to trust nobody, and for awhile now.

08:07

i have been sitting in the old telephone chair at capp for some mornings now, this morning someone placed a stack of individually wrapped condoms in the chair so i looked for a spot to place them… back next to the container they came from at the front desk…